OCTOOTD 10/20

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I just can’t get enough of the warm golden glow that incapsulated my tiny home today. Walking around over crunching leaves with Archer while more fell down gently on our heads and sipping coffee between bites of snickerdoodles while the autumn-sun gently beat down on my cheeks… these are the moments that matter.

I get so swept up in all the bad in this world… the cruelty and selfishness that exists, peering behind so many of our everyday luxuries. I don’t walk by fast fashion retailers and see fun, cute dresses. I see sweatshop labor, wasted resources and growing landfills. I can’t walk by packaged meat or gallons of milk at the grocery store and see “dinner”. I see the pain and suffering of thousands of farm animals every day that are enslaved and tortured by humans for our selfish gains.

These are the harsh realities behind so many everyday things. I have always had a problem with feeling things too much. Though my diet has only just gone fully vegan this year (finally!) and my shopping fast-fashion free, I have struggled my entire life with allowing the pain and suffering of this planet and its  many diverse inhabitants just WEIGH DOWN on me. No one is perfect, least of all me, so inevitably there is the pangs of guilt and frustration that creep in upon the self-scrutiny of my own bad habits and mistakes.  I can’t seem to un-see things and I can’t seem to keep them to myself… I start telling everyone I know about all the injustices in our world and how we’re the problem and I just get so overwhelmed and impassioned and I can’t seem to stop. That’s actually a big reason why I started this blog… It’s been a good outlet for me to share my love for slow fashion though I’ve been able to keep it relatively low-key. Mainly out of fear of offending anyone or coming off too strongly but the truth is I am FILLED with passion for our planet, our people and our creatures.

However, today I’m thankful to have been reminded of the good in this world and my life. The gift of nature, of safety, of health… I’m grateful for my awareness and compassion for those who suffer and endure hardship but I also need to be grateful for my own “blessings” and simple pleasures. I’m thankful to be able to walk around my own backyard with my sweet dog Archer who unlike so many poor pups has a warm bed and a family that absolutely adores and spoils him. I’m so thankful for the peace and quiet of a day off, especially on a day as beautiful as this. So, overall today I am just feeling thankful and while it’s important to care and take action, you can’t lose sight of the good and important aspects of your life and your day. Even the smallest most insignificant moments and feelings of joy matter.

So, I apologize for the length of this blog post and it’s likely that many of you didn’t even read this far but I hope this was a good chance to get to know me on a bit of a deeper level and if you can relate, hopefully serve as a reminder for yourself as well. So here’s to keeping a balanced mind and a balanced heart. Thanks for reading. ❤

 

|Dress: old f21 dress handed down by a friend, Knee socks: old, Boots: thrifted vintage zip up ankle boots|img_0586img_0454octootd201img_0467

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